12/18/11

Love, Life, and Destiny



Life sometimes can be bittersweet. I always knew that there had be a day when I would say goodbye to my old love, but never expected it to end it in a bitter sweet way. Yes, I got engaged to a distant relative recently and it happened before the very eyes of my former love, Boss Lady. It seemed somewhat ironical to think that a person, whom you loved so much, would be the first to hear the news of your engagement and wish you "Good Luck" much to your dismay.

Truth be said, I was hurt and it really bothered me to be in such an embarassing situation. On one end, I have my prospective life partner sitting besides me and on the other end, I have my love, now my ex-love, someone whom I loved more than my life for over a decade, looking at me with a mysterious smile.


My mind raised a thousand questions. Why did she smile? Was she relieved? Was she happy that her guy found a better girl? Was she really happy or simply did not care about whatever happened? Did she sigh in relief that I wouldn't/couldn't disturb her anymore.

  As I said those fateful words, "Yes, I am ok with the Girl", I could hear sighs of joy on the faces of my parents, smiles around, and people sighing in relief. But all I cared was about that one person. When I looked around, I just saw her smile. As all the drama occurred and I returned home to Chennai, I thought of all those sweet moments that I had with her. Boy! Such wonderful moments. How I wish I had succeeded.Alas, such is love, such is life.

All that has happened now will be history and all that matters is what is going to happen". I recently heard that Boss lady got engaged too. And the most ironical thing is that her marriage is just hardly a month away from mine. Well, I guess that great endings happen only in films. I called her yesterday to have a small discussion before we finally part our ways. As I dialed her number, it occurred to me that this could probably be the beginning of the end. As she picked the phone and said Hello, I gasped for breath. I took a few moments and finally told her that it was me on the other end. She spoke for about 20 minutesbefore finally ending the conversation with those fateful words, "I can't say my husband is a smart man. To be frank, he is not that good looking. But I said yes because he was a good man like you. Wishing you all the very best, my dear friend". As I disconnected the call, I wondered what she meant. "If she wanted a good man, why couldn't it be me?", I said to myself as I walked away in grief. Such is the tragic fate of love, such is life and destiny :(

"Oh dear friend, I need to say good bye.
Please don't ever ask me, WHY?
Because although I know the reason, I can never tell
that life without you is as good as hell........
I will always love you no matter what
because even as we part, we will stay close at heart.
I always wished that we would  live together in harmony,
but such is love, life and destiny.
So Good bye dear,  till we meet again.
I wish we could relive those good old days again."



10/8/11

Rest in Peace, Steve Jobs

This imaginary post is dedicated to the late Steve Jobs.
Scene: (Steve Jobs goes to heaven and is welcomed by God and a group of Angels)

God: Welcome back, Steve.

Steve Jobs: Hey, what place is this? Who are you folks?

Angel 1: Steve, your tenure at Earth has come to an end. You are in heaven. You can rest in peace here.

Steve Jobs: Rest…. You guys crazy… You interrupted me.. I was discussing with my Apple folks on the next big Apple product.

God: WTH!!!! Steve, for heaven’s sake, gimme a break. You have created several path-breaking projects. Apple, Next Computers, i-Pod, i-Pad, i-Phone, i-Mac and several other beauties. All these in 56 years of lifetime. Please stop now. Enjoy your time in heaven.

Steve Jobs: Sorry boss, I need to finish my product, I call it i-Car……

God and the Angels shout aloud: i——What????????????

Steve Jobs: i-Car. You see… I want to redefine the way Cars are made. So we designed i-Car- the first smart car. All you have to do is type your destination and it will suggest

The various routes to the desired destination
The variour hotels, shopping malls, and cineplexes on the specified route.
Recommend the list of tourist destinations that you can see
God: Hmm, interesting,. So what else does it do.

Angel 1(Smirks): He defies the maker!!!!

Steve Jobs: Well….. we have also incorporated the functionality to ensure that the car stereo plays tracks suiting the mood of the driver. Also, the Air conditioner will adjust its temperature according to the surroundings and the number of people in the car. Plus, the car has two fuel modes - Solar and Gas.

The car will automatically charge in Solar mode if the Sun is bright and shining……..

Also, the car has an in-built 12MP camera, which takes pictures of the scenic destinations on-the-go..

God: Great mother mary…. stop it Jobs. Stop it…..enough with your creativity…..

Steve Jobs (observes the surroundings): Oh jee, that’s a nice place you have here. You just gave me inspiration for the next big product I am gonna create.

God: Next big product…… here… in heaven. What exactly will it be?? Ah,… let me guess… An i-robot???

Steve Jobs: No

Angel 2: i-restaurant??? i-Mall???

Steve Jobs: No

God(loses his patience): What the hell is it???

Lucifer: Hell!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don’t speak about my place in a derogatory manner.

Steve Jobs: Nope, it is i-GOD!!!!

Angels 1 and 2: OH GOD…………………

Lucifer: Damn it…. And I thought it was difficult to handle one god. And now he gives the great one company &*&^(&(&(&)&)(&*()(+_)+_)*(*()DAMN YOU STEVE JOBS

Steve Jobs: Excuse me, I gotta start work now…………….

GOD: Send this guy back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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1/27/11

The Dumb Student


“Ram, you have topped the class again. Congratulations!”, said Professor Satya.
Ram, the class topper and Satyamurthy’s favorite student, was standing up, beaming in pride. The class students started clapping while Professor Satya continued, “Class, if you ever desire to prosper in life, be like Ram. In life, studying hard is the only way to come up.”

After a few seconds of applause, the students returned back to their usual silent self because they realized that they had agony in store for them – Professor Satya was about to distribute the exam papers of other students. The very thought of hearing Satya’s sarcastic comments irked each and every one of the class.
Satya started distributing the exam papers. As expected, most of the class had scored average marks. None so worse than Raghu, Satya’s least favorite student, who had failed scoring only 17/100.

Satya turned towards the back row where Raghu was seated.
“Dear students! You know what? Raghu has yet again failed in MATHS.”
Raghu hung his head in shame. Professor Satya continued, “Teaching students like you is a waste of time. This is the second terminal exam that you have failed in Mathematics. If you can’t solve simple problems in Probability and Trigonometry, how will you survive in life? I am not sure you can improve now. MARK my words; you are NOT EVEN GOOD ENOUGH TO EVEN BECOME A CLERK. Oh my god, how am I gonna show cent per cent results in the upcoming public exams. This fellow is gonna spoil my reputation for sure.”

Raghu hung his head in shame. This was the umpteenth time that he had been insulted. Raghu was not a bad student. He had excelled in extra curricular activities like Essay Writing and Quiz competitions, but could never repeat his performance in studies. Satya was harsh on Raghu because he feared that Raghu was an obstacle to the school’s record of scoring 100% results.

During the next annual Parent-Teachers meeting, Satya did his best to convince the principal to exclude Raghu from appearing in the forthcoming HSC exams and was successful. Raghu was dimissed on grounds of consistent poor performance.
Years rolled by. Satya was now accompanying his 20 year old son, who was about to attend a non-campus interview for a lucrative Trainee position in a reputed MNC, Aston Infotech.

Satya’s son entered the building to attend the interview while Satya was waiting in the company’s cafeteria sipping a cup of tea. Suddently, he saw a person calling out his name. He turned around and realized it was none other than his former classmate, Ram.

Ram: “Sir, What a pleasant surprise?”

Satya: “Oh. Ram beta, is it you? I am so happy to see you here. How are you? What are you doing here?”

Ram: “I am fine sir. I work as a Project Manager here. I am very happy to see you. ?”

Satya: “Nice to hear that beta. My son, Rupesh, is here for an interview. He is a BE graduate and has applied for the post of a Trainee Programmer in your company. “

Ram: (Having a look at Rupesh’s resume copy given by Satya) He has a good academic record, if he passes the aptitude test and the second round, I will ensure he gets selected.

(As they were speaking, Rupesh comes)

Rupesh: Dad, I completed the second round. The interview was tough, I’ve done my best. Let’s see.

Satya: Ok son. Let’s go to the Reception and wait there. Maybe they would announce the results soon.

(Satya and Rupesh move to the reception where the interviewer announces the results of folks, who have been shortlisted for the last round. Rupesh finds he has been not shortlisted for the final round)

Rupesh: This is unfair dad. I had done well in the test, yet they failed to shortlist me. This is not fair.

Satya: Cool down son. One of my old students is a Project Manager here, let’s visit him, perhaps he may be able to help.
(Rupesh and Satya go to the receptionist and request an appointment with Ram. The receptionist calls Ram, who asks the receptionist to give the phone to Satya)
Satya (Explains the situation to Ram on the phone): This is what happened, they rejected my son for some reason.

Ram: (After checking Rupesh’s results with the HR team): Sir, I am sorry. We rejected your son because we are looking for Engineering students who have background in Computer Science or Information Technology. Your son has specialized in Electronics and Communication. I am sorry, we used to recruit candidates from all streams and train them, earlier, but now since we have very less training budget, we are focusing only on a certain skillset.

Satya (In a shocked tone): “But beta, my son has a good academic record. Furthermore, he has completed a diploma in Information Technology……..”

Ram: “I am sorry again, I have been given the responsibility of recruiting candidates who have basic level skills in C++, Java and other skills. While your son has done a diploma, he still does posses the required skillset as his test results showed. I cannot afford to recruit a candidate who needs to be trained. It will spoil my training budget and resource utilization. We pride here in 100% billable resources right from second month of training sir. Your son does not fit the bill. Sorry to say this. I have a meeting, will call you later.”

Satya (Mumbling to himself): That ungrateful wretch, I gave special attention and support to him during his schooldays and see how he returns back the favor. Bloody wretch…..
Rupesh: “Appa, what happened?”

Satya: “Ram says he can’t help us. I guess you have to try some other company.” (Walks away in shock)
(Just when Satya and Rupesh are about to leave, they hear a voice calling Satya’s name)

Satya: (Looks behind to see a tall person with a french beard): “Sorry, I am not sure I recognized you. Do we know each other?”
Person A: “Pardon me, but I think I know you. Are you Satya, a teacher, at HSS, Triplicane?”

Satya: “Yes. But how do we know each other.”
Person A: “Well, my brother studied there. You were his class teacher.”
Satya: (Still irritated due to the discussion with Ram): “Err, nice meeting you beta. But I gotta go.”

Person A: “Sorry to disturb you, may I know why youare. Do you want to meet someone?”

Satya (Looks irritated, but still explains how Rupesh attended the interview and got rejected): “I am afraid they rejected my son Rupesh. I gotto go. Now.”

Person A: No problem sir. Please wait for 5 minutes, I may be able to help you. (Picks his mobile and calls the HR department to get Rupesh’s details)

Person A (Speaks to Rupesh and Satya): “Rupesh, you have done very well in the tests. But since you have not specialized in IT, they are not willing to recruit you.”

Satya: “We know…. I am afraid there’s nothing we can do about that.”

Person A: (Smiles) “So Ram rejected your son because he wanted resources, who could show 100% utilization after they complete training…..? Is it so?”

Satya: “Err………… Yes… That ungrateful wretch.”
Person A: “Don’t worry sir. I think I can help him. I am the Manager of Human Resource Management here. We have a special training for candidates who are from the Non-IT background. Perhaps, if your son is willing to undergo this 2 month training with just a marginal stipend, maybe I can help him out.”

Rupesh:” Thank you sir. I agree. Please let me know from when I should attend the training.”
Person A: “Well, I will speak to Mythili, one of my HR team members. She will get back to you tomorrow.”

Satya (Smiles finally): Thank you son…. I am indebted to you.
Satya: “Thanks son. I don’t know who you are, but you have helped us while that ungrateful wretch Ram didn’t even bother.”

Person A: “You must stop blaming Mr.Ram. He was just following what he was taught during his schooldays.”

Satya: “What do you mean?”

Person A: “I am not sure you remember. But ten years before, you had dismissed a student, Raghuveer, stating the reason that he was poor in mathematics. Didn’t you?”

Satya: “Yes, Raghu… I remember. You see he was doing badly in maths. Furthermore, the HSC exams were nearing. I didn’t ant him to fail and stop the class from scoring a cent per cent pass result.”

Person A:
“Precisely. Ram has also done the same. He rejected your son because your son didn’t possess the necessary skill. Morever, Ram saw your son as a threat to the billable utilization of his team. He wasn’t ready to recruit a resource and then train him.

The same was the case with you. You could have taken special efforts to help Raghu, instead you chose to dismiss him.”

Satya: (Feels ashamed and irritated at the same time): “Nonsense, how do you know? Raghu was useless, he would not have done better had he been retained. I pity that guy, he was good for nothing. Why are you so concerned about Raghu?”

Person A: “Well, unfortunately, your attitude hasn’t changed much. Raghu happens to be in a key position in this company. So be careful with your words.

Satya: “Raghu?????? Key position…. (Laughs for a few seconds) That idiot was not good enough to do simple sums in probability and statistics, how can he be in a big position in the MNC. Ha ha”


Person A:
(Irritated to the core)Yes, Raghu, the same useless fellow, is here at ASTON INFOTECH. Infact, your son’s fate would be decided by Raghu. So, be careful with your words.

Satya (Mumbling to himself): “Hmm, I thought Raghu would never pass.. What an Irony? I now need to respect to him.”


Person A:
Ok, I got to go now. Here’s my visiting card. Ask Rupesh to meet me tomorrow at 10 AM sharp. Here’s my card.

(Person A Leaves)

Satya (Laughs): Rupesh, look at the irony. Ram, one of my best students and Raghu, one of the dumbest students, are in the same company. Wonder how Raghu got into Aston??? Must be by recommendation.

Rupesh: I am not sure appa. Because I think Raghu is actually Raghuveer, the Senior Manager of HR, here. I heard during the interview that he was one of the most respected employees at Aston Infotech.

Satya: Naaah, can’t be him. Raghu failed in mathematics. He would have never made it big, that too in a company like this…… That must be some other Raghu….
“You ARE NOT EVEN GOOD ENOUGH TO BECOME A CLERK”, Satya remembered those scornful words to Raghu. The next day, Rupesh attends the final round and comes home dejected, with a letter addressed to Satya.

Satya: “What happened?”

Rupesh: “I don’t know. I did well in the third round. Everything seemed to go fine til the person whom we spoke yesterday, entered the room.”

Satya:
“Why? What did he say?”

Rupesh: “He handed this letter to me and asked me to give it to you. He said I was rejected and he had mentioned the reason in the paper.”

Satya: What the helll???? (Opens the letter and reads) Dear Sir,This is Raghu, the useless brat from XII C, 2001 batch. Many years ago, I was struggling with my studies, foolishly hoping that you would help me to improve. But instead of helping you, you devoted most of your time in humiliating me, viewing me as a pest, and finallly dismissing me from school. You called me dumb and not fit enough even to become a clerk. However, thankfully god had other plans and I was GOOD ENOUGH TO BECOME A SENIOR HR MANAGER of a REPUTED COMPANY. After many years, I saw you yesterday. Even despite my previous bitter experiences, I truly wanted to help your son and still want to. But after speaking to you yesterday, I feel you are right, “The end does justify the means.” I was initially thinking of recruiting your son after he completed the company-sponsored training. However, after yesterday’s discussion, I feel that I should not compromise by recruiting your son as he is not good enough to BECOME EVEN A TRAINEE PROGRAMMER at ASTON INFOTECH Take care and thanks for the enlighment.
Yours disobediently,
Raghuveer L

Satya’s eyes were almost in tears. He realized that his earlier follies may have cost his son a good job. Suddenly, he sees Rupesh change his expression from disappointment to a childish smile.
Satya looks at the mail again. There are still a few lines below the signature of Raghu veer.

P.S: I know that you would have been cursing me by now. I just wanted to write this mail to show how disappointed I was with you. I have not rejected your son. He has been selected as a Trainee Programmer. Ask him to be join soon.
BTW…. please be kind to dumb students, you never know when they come in handy.

After reading the letter, Satya smiled……. The DUMB STUDENT had made a wise decision

12/29/10

End of yet another roller coaster ride


Time has flown so quickly. It has been 5 months since I blogged and I didn't even notice. A lot has happened since. BL, my love, has got engaged to a guy in BLR. I got an offer in a good MNC and have quit the company which I was working in. Grandma passed away and what not.
Things have happened so fast that I didn't even get time to comprehend them.

If each person's life is considered to be one long journey, mine just happens to be a set of roller coaster rides. My last roller coaster ride started from August 11, 2008, the date when I joined Sfy. When I left EK for Sfy, I came into the organization expecting to learn a lot, professionally. And.. I must say, Sfy has taught me a lot of things, positive and negative. But the positives outnumbered the negatives by a distance.

I really cherished my tenure at Sfy for the following reasons:
This place allowed me to:
1)Experiment on a variety of projects, commit some costly blunders, and yet, still get the opportunity to redeem myself.
2)Work with a team which always got even the toughest job done with a smile.
3)Learn the tricks of the trade, judge people by looking at their nature, not their face.
4)Look into things more objectively, not just from my perspective.
5)Enjoy my work and cherish my achievement and accept my failures.
6)Appreciate every single opportunity and make the most of it.

While I have to admit that things weren't rosy as they seem. For one, I always believed that the extra-curricular activities at this place were severely lagging. Also, my mentor was at times, lacking focus, judging me by my past mistakes, and focusing too much on the short-term. Thankfully, things changed for good and we shared a great rapport ever since then. To say frankly, I was to blame for most of the things that happened, and to my credit, I set things right.

Also, I worked with some of the most jovial persons that I have ever seen. I was surprised to see a few team members smile even when they knew that they were made to stay back as late as 2AM. Their effort and passion totally rejuvenated me and changed the way I approached projects. The best thing that ever happened to me was my lead. While she was not the best boss I did have, I learned a lot of professionalism and variety of ID strategies under her tutelage. At the end, I have to give her full credit for building my professional repertoire.

The biggest pluspoint of working at this place was that I learned to respect other people no matter what they thought of me. I knew that some people would hate me no matter what I do or not do. But rather than trying to please them, I focused purely on doing my job with maximum efficiency. Thankfully, I got my due over here.

To say shortly, SFY taught me to mind my own business and do it best :)

I wish to end this post thanking my lead Puja and my current and erstwhile team members in no particular order: Paridhi, Pandi, Puja, Prabu, Gopal, Saras, Sam, Balaji, Jose, Devi, Senthil, Deepa, Sharada,Mujeeba, Anitha, Rathna, Paul, Aijaz, Leela, Vinodh, Srividya, Vijay, Shanky, Vijaybhaskar, Srini, and Vishesh.

7/24/10

Laughing at Myself


Disappointments - The only good thing about them is that when you succeed, your happiness gets increase manifold.

Well, I am in no mood for philosophy! Because I know that being philosophical doesn't help.

What do you do when you spend 7+ years in trying to make a girl love you and then fail miserably? Do you sulk? Do you spend sleepless nights thinking over her and write poems about her like they do in those STUPID HINDI AND TAMIL FILMS? Do you start boozing like Devadas (Bastard, he found a lame excuse for being an alchoholic)?

Well, it's better NOT to do any of these? They only pile on misery. The best thing would be to move on and try to find your true love.

Ok, so I move on and wait for two years. All of a sudden, my family decide that their son needs a daughter in law. And within no time, you see the family members busy analyzing horoscopes and trying to find a good match. I remain skeptical realizing that I am still NOT READY for getting married. Then they show her photo to me to get me into Marriage mode. When I open the photo, what do I see? I see a beautiful young girl, an angel, the one you kinda wanted to fall in love to? Then, I think that maybe this is retribution!Whoa! wait, god has other plans in store. Our horoscopes don't match and I fall to Ground Zero from Cloud Nine again! Total Comedy.

I end up sulking for 2 hours and then accept the fact that this ain't the right time. So, I start doing what I did best, hangout with my friends, go to office, read articles, chat with friends, play cricket.

Just as things seem to go pretty fine, I get curious and land up searching HER (The girl I was supposed to be engaged to) profile in Facebook. And what do I see, I see her engagement photos. Ouch! Now, that hurt! Ok, so another one down the drain, I think, "Well, maybe a girl that beautiful deserved better, Wish her all the best".

Then, I try to sign out of Facebook. "Wait",my mind says. "Lemme see who that lucky guy was?" So, I go and see the photo of that lucky lad. Boy, what a sight, he looks plump, fair, and completely opposite to her slim and trim frame. They both seem complete opposites. For a second, I imagine how it would have been if I had been in his place.

I then realize that she WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE my life partner. With a heavy heart, I sign out of Facebook and sulk for an hour. Then, I start with my mundane work. I realize that I still remain SINGLE!

A week later, Mom informs me that another prospective alliance has arrived. This time, I say NO clearly.

For some moments, my mind begins to wallow in self-pity. But when I realize that this is just a part of life and that I am bound to get a GOOD ONE in the near future. The confidence comes back and I feel better!

When I just sit back and ponder thinking what would have happened if any of those things had WORKED and I had been engaged, I start laughing at myself :)

Because I realize that I am GOOD, I have the talent to make it BIG in life, and sooner or later, I am bound to find my TRUE love ANYWAYS. So why sulk in pity when God has given you the tools to achieve what you desire.

"If you are so confident, why do you need such a LONG POST", You may ask.

I needed to write this long post because I feel better when I download my bad feelings somewhere else.

"The person who knows how to laugh at himself will never cease to be amused."

Life is too precious to be spent worrying. I have a strong GUT feeling that my RETRIBUTION is just around the corner. So, please wish me luck. And sorry for the LONG POST.

Bye. I need to step out and see if I can find my ANGEL ;)

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5/30/10

The Past, the Present, and the Future

"What was a dream yesterday becomes a reality today and then becomes a memory tomorrow"-Anonymous.

It's been a decade since I completed my Tenth standard, Eight years since I left School, and 5 years since I graduated. Time seems to have passed off so fast. When I visit my old neighbourhood (Ice House), I can just feel my mind wandering over to the bittersweet moments that happened in the past.

How can I forget these memories?

The wonderful cricket matches that I played along with my friends at Angamuthu street, Williams Ground, and the Marina Beach.

My wonderful street gang: Umashankar, Arun, Shahul, Gopi, Gopi M, Babu, GT, and others.

My wonderful friends at Hindu Hr Sec School (Muthu, Gopi, Hari, Visu S and Visu R, Karthick, Gururaj, Sridhar, Venky, and Yuvraj!), playing cricket during lunch intervals at our School ground! Guys, do you remember how we stopped playing cricket after our PT master flogged our arses with his 5 foot cane. Boy, how we hated him for that!!

The financial losses that my dad's restaurant went through! Those dark days where I had to sit in my restaurant all day wondering when our business will prosper, the days where we couldn't answer our moneylenders :( The humiliation we had to go through.

The water scarcity that forced me to cycle nearly 3 kms everyday in search of water, and fetch 6 pots of water using my cycle. Man! Trying to fetch water from the pumps sure made me lose lot of weight and made my hand muscles strong!! :D

The beautiful Vinayagar temple opposite to Mirsahibpet, the Amman temple in Balaji Nagar, and the Narasimha Sannadhi in Parthasarathy Temple! :) These were the only places which offered me hope in times of despair!


I would list a lot more, but guess what, some good times seldom return!

I know that someone may be reading this and wondering what's so special? Well, somethings are special for no reason! I cherish these memories for only one reason, they made my past bitter, sweet, and beautiful!

It's sad to think how Life changes for the Better/Worse. Ten years ago, I had just fifty rupees in my purse and still I felt like a Billionaire. Today, I have nearly 500 times more money and yet I feel like a beggar! Guess that's LIFE for ya!

Maybe it's because I have ceased to be the sentimental idiot that I once used to be! Or is it because that SHE's now gone from my life! Whatever it is, LIFE HAS CHANGED AND I NEED TO MOVE ON. (An apt ending for such an aimless post)

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2/24/10

Happy Birthday


I take this opportunity to wish my dear friends on their birthdays.

1) Mahesh Ramani: I wish my friend, who turned 28 today, a very happy birthday. Wish that he steps into the next phase of life - Life post Marriage by Feb 23, 2011.

Happy Birthday, buddy! May all your wishes come true.

2) Shahul Hameed: Wishing this genius friend of mine a very happy birthday. He celebrated his 27th birthday on February 15th, 2010. Sorry for not wishing you on your birthday pal! May this birthday be followed by many more happy ones to come.
May god bless you and your family.

3) Thulasi: She is a cousin and very good friend of mine. I wish this cute, grown up, kid (Oxymoron)a very happy birthday! May the forthcoming years bring you peace, prosperity, and happiness dear.

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